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now i was in holiday, i still left around one week ... along this holiday, i thinked many or dozen of things !!!!!!!!!! i thinked about my college life, personalities, social life....

i found that im really a lousy person ... i found that my life was messed ... maybe im an overthinker... is it this is my problem or others ???

i heard my friends said, scorpion hard to express their feelings to others... and yet i am ... perhaps it is ... i think i have a barrier who hurted me so bad !!!!!!!!!!!!!! this make me breathless ... i had a group of best friends who were really close to me, we talked, shopped, and do whatever that girls or best friends suppose to do ... but finally, i found that they had their own secret ... why ??? now even like net friends also same .... im freaking give up everthing !!!!!!!!!! is it im untrusted ???? i really want the answer !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

when i was thinked of this, i cried .... i need someone that understand me .....

signing off, Yvonne

love? like? admire? used to it?

i dun know what im thinking now... my mind is keep going thinking of him ... is it this what what others say "LOVE" ???? i really dun know ... when he was online i want to chat with him but i was scare so i just leave it ... actually i was waiting whether he was find me in msn ... and the answer is no, she rather find my friends then me..... maybe we are not as close .... but we was just very close since we at secondary and now i really very sad .... sigh ~~ i hope that he will be fine .... i wont interrupt his life .... i swear ...