english !!!!!!!!!!!!

my english really suck !!!!!!!!!! how ????

sigh ~~

i dun know what to do now ....

Little Nyonya ~~

today only i finish watched the "little nyonya" tv show ... it is a singaporean tv show .... it describe the life of Nyonya and Baba .... the content of this tv show was touched my heart .... and it really nice to watch it ....

i learn something from this tv show, it said that "if someone treat u badly, i cannot treat bad them back, oppositely i have to respect them" .... this made me flashback my past life ... i really didnt hate them ... i treat them very good right now .... but i didnt expect they treat me like this ... haha ^^

another things is, "love is a need, u can be not get it" .... i like this very much .... because it describe my condition right now ...

thirdly is, "love needs courage" .... i really need it ....

forth is, "i wont resigned my fate" .... this is amazing too ....

there were so many but i cant recall it ...sorry yea ... ^^

as conclusion, as my opinion, i think that, although i fond of him but he is not belongs to me... but i wont think that i must get him .... oppositely, i will pray for him everyday quitely....

hoping !!!!!!

i was just wandering that, the guy that i fond with is it my MR. Right ???? but my mind gave me a response that maybe happen, but in reality, i found that it was hard to happen because he was in last semester in INTI ... how come got interaction ??? and only one thing is we just know each other's existing but no coversation and interaction .... so there was 99.9999999% wont happen ....

and i was so desperate that why now only i realize his existing ???? why ????? sigh ~~ and if we really got interaction with each other, i just wan to do few things with him, that is ....

(a) take many many photos with him
(b) go hang out together
(c) take meals together
(d) lie on his shoulder
(e) hold his hands
(f) give him a present

JUST ONCE !!!!!!!!! i already satisfied with this ....

but i just think it wont happen ... sigh again >.<

miracle ~~

wakakakakakakaka !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hurayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today i accidently saw him at theside-walk cafe ... lolz .... damn handsome and wearing formal damn smart !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! actually before went to the cafe ... i was no energy and no mood de ... but than after saw him at there ... i full of energy ... he is my 100 plus ....

hope that can know him ... but very hard .... sigh .... if people got girlfriend then i will be the third person ... very bad de ... i dun want had a bad name ...

hope that we can be friend at least ... but seems like impossible ... haiz ... people last semester now .... hard to make it ... die ~~

god... u have to help me !!!!!!!!! please ... i beg u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lose ~~

today's semi-final match really amazing ... but they lose ... because at the last few minutes, they very nervous and just want to win ... then faul many times because of this and give points to their enermy ... that's why they lose .... already a truth, angry also useless ... just take it easy ... tomorrow will be better ....

and today i saw HIM ... lol ... still charming as now .... haha ^^ got eye contact with HIM ... so happy ... but i know that although i "like" or "love" or "admire" him, its impossible to happen this to me ... cause we are apart from each other and even no interaction between us and life ... somemore he will get out from my sight soon ... so i know it .... i will try myself not step too deep inside, if not i cannot pull myself out from that ... then i will hurt more at that time ....

all i can do is pray for him everyday and i already feel very "幸福" .... all the best for him and had a nice day .... good night and had a sweet dream ....

missing him ~~

im missing him a lot ... i think i fall in him .... sigh ~~ but i know its impossible ... because of certain reasons .... and everyday i pray for him .... maybe this is the best way .... hope that he will be fine and his injury part will be recover soon ...

it will be the last time i will see him next week ... i think we dun have any fate ... because he drive to class everyday and i have no fate to see his face again ~~ maybe i will very miss him .... and search for his exists ....

i will continue to pray for him and i will put him deeply in my heart ... and i love you ~~ do u ???

change my email address !!!!!!!!!!

yuhuuuuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally im going to change my email address ... already change ... lolz ... so everyone and my friends remember to add it !!!!!
haha ^^ have to inform so many people ... want die already ... haha ^^

want add him or n0t ??? confusing ~~

what the hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking hell stupid !!!!!!!!!

today i went to watch basketball semi-final match with peggy ... actually i was wandering i was watching with mei teen but because of her friends birthday .... she go out with them to celebrate.... but then i was very angry with .... fucking hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and they made me uncomfortable and really angry even want to cry also .... finally i go to sathiya room and finally i cry ~~ i dun know how to explain ... maybe my six sense was strong and it tell me what is happening now ... and peggy also can see through it ...

i was regret now and i dun want play anymore .... but the truth tell me i cant ... because i already addicted ... i cant even pull myself out from that ... if i really can pull myself out from that, then how about them ???? for them, the problem still there, it wont disappear .... so what can i do ???? i really dun have any idea ... i really very tired tired tired ... i have no energy to play again .... really ... but i cant do anything ....

accident in INTI !!!!!!!!!!!!

today de quiz very hard ... sigh ~~ i only can do a few questions ... die this time ... and today's basketball match very cool also ... haha ^^

suddenly g0t a people come and talk with me ... scare ~~ haha ^^ luckily i got peggy ~~ wuwuwu ~~

and got accident .... i and peggy go and help the indian girl ... the driver win already ... people also cant see when dirving .... za dao !!!!!!

the indian girl hurt her back, elbow and shoulder joints ..... and she cant even move .... so i put some ice for her ... but finally ok already ... when i put the ice, suddenly g0t many people come around see .... haha ^^ seems like that time im a hero ... lolz ... just joking ~~

after her friends sent her go clinic, then my and peggy's job finish .... damn tired .... haha ^^ this make me flashback that time i was at secondary school help many people ... haha ^^ very happy that can help many people .... haha ^^ that's why i choose science and pharmacy ... can help people also ... haha ^^

nervousnessss ~~

tomorrow having quiz 1 for my PCE 1108 , which is pharmaceutics 1 .... damn scare and nervous ... currently extremely, hype nervous .... sweat ...

maybe scare for what type of questions wil coming out ... or whatever ...

really hope that tomorrow quiz will works smoothly and i can do it .... Amen ...

p.s: for him also .... had a nice day and sweet dreams .... Amen

unbelievable .... dissapointed ~~

sigh ~~ today's basketball match really nice .... i the Happy VS Purify .... but then, Happy team was lost ... 3 marks only ... 56 VS 59 ... damn shit .... haha ^^ but he still very charming when he shoot the ball .... admiring ~~ haha ^^ but he seems like hurt .... in his leg and hand .... worried ~~ got a feeling that want give him some ice ~~ (p.s : ice was useful in first aid) but i didnt .... scare ~~ huhu ~~ such a long time i didnt saw him ... very sad ... only today i saw him at the basketball court ... sad ~~ no fate ??? uhhhhhhh

hope can know each other .... really .... want to aloud to him :
"Yvonne still SINGLE and AVAILABLE" !!!!!!!

haha ^^ hope he will know la ~~ available for him anytime .... hehe ^^ (p.s: seems like very cheap) .... hehe ^^

end ~~ hope can see him in normal day ~~ miss him very much ....